edu180atl: katie jacobs 11.27.12
Today my frustration reached its peak. I am no longer disappointed nor accepting, but overwhelmed. I have been out of commission with a knee injury for eleven months. My life has become very stationary and slow. I was always the kid going from one practice to another; never standing still. Now, I sit and watch with envy and regret, but also fear. Never in my life did I imagine the emotional and physical toll of an injury.
As I look at my left knee, I am constantly reminded of the painful memories of dislocating my knee three times followed by two knee surgeries. While my knee is physically scarred, with six large incisions, I have learned over this long process that the mental battle wounds are much worse.
For me, my entire life has changed. I never understood what sports provided me, until they were completely taken away. I have lost my sense of drive and belief in myself, and the scariest realization is the fear I have found within. I always considered myself a strong person, able to deal with much adversity, but this was one massive bullet. My frustration is towards myself. I feel myself mentally wanting to give up. Finding the strength to fight my fears is the hardest, but with support from others, I am beginning to regain my confidence and hope. This experience has taught me that while life may throw many obstacles your way, with belief in oneself, one’s true character and strength will persevere.
About the author: Katie Jacobs is a junior at Holy Innocents’ Episcopal School. She loved playing sports and hopes to return to soccer field and basketball court someday soon.